A Poem for Letting Go
White Knuckles
With white knuckles, I hold hard and fast to what should be
My will, this way, please bless it, O Lord
Can’t You see what could be?
The life I thought You promised me?
You are the Lord of lords
Instead You’re pointing to a cross
That is too heavy to bear
It looks weighty, yet empty
Disquieting, yet intriguing
But can’t You see my hands are full?
Do You even care?
With white knuckles, I hold hard and fast to the life I thought I’d live
A tight grip with sweaty palms
The unknown holds me captive
But the tiny flame that burns inside
Invites me now to close my eyes
And muster up a “yes” for You
To peel each of these fingers back
Release my grip, give You some slack
To do what You came to do
You peel back each finger
One by one
Detaching me from
What never was
You peel back each finger
One by one
Color returns
My fingers no longer numb
With free hands, I hold hard and fast to Your will for me today
The life I thought You promised me
Was not the path to intimacy
With Your Sacred Heart
Your total Self, Your endless love,
Your goodness, mercy, Body and Blood
Satiate any desire I could ever dream of
Your total Self, Your endless love,
Your goodness, mercy, Body and Blood
Provide peace this world will never make sense of
With free hands, I hold hard and fast to the chalice You offer me
A crown of thorns, just like Yours
A chance to share in Your suffering
With free hands, I hold hard and fast to that cross You offered me
That heavy cross I never wanted
Was the cross that set me free